Alise
01 September 2010, 06:39 PM
Namaste,
First of all, I must say that I'm not good at making attractive titles :) But still hope that it's OK, if I post this.
I'm person with disability. You know I just found out how my disability can be translated into English. Never in Latvian I could find something that would help me to explain in English, what I mean by 'kind of disabled'. So now I know it's called Spastic Cerebral Palsy [Spastic hemiplegia - I'll copy text what it means below...].
So now as I said this I can continue to the being Hindu part. In one way Hinduism can make you feel bad that you are different from other people. But in the other way Hinduism is only religion that explains why people [if God exists. I believe in God, I just accept that God might not exist] have these kind of conditions & better or worse life than somebody else. The people around us & ignorance is that makes everything worse, not the disability itself.
I actually say that I'm kind of disabled, because people usually think someone in the wheelchair, am I right? I am not.
Whatever bad I did in my past life, I got that back in much, much better way than many people. I can dance, sing, I have fantastically big fantasies & imagination, I have really big goals [I want to become actress, singer-songwriter & director AND reform Hollywood & defend my dear Hinduism] & the Best Mom ever. I have had so much luck in my life. Like this time when I really wanted Mac computer & suddenly my sister's cousin called my mom if we need financial help [the Global crisis], so we took some of the money that was left for me by my uncle. My mom could pay anything that she couldn't (she took loan when she actually calculated that she could pay back, then there was no sign of global economical crisis) & I got Macbook Pro, an Ipod Nano & I even bought Ipod shuffle for my little sister & got everything for less :) And then of course milk soup was accidently spilled on it & I didn't turn it off at the right time. My computer was called 'Miracle' by the man who fixed it & did everything for bottle of good brandy. [When the bad happened I was into Judaism, when the 'miracle' happened - Hinduism.]. My point was: I'm really lucky to be like this in my current life, even with my disability.
Then there's people who say that to be Hindu one must be born as one. I believe it's not true. Why? I call it spiritual journey. Person without any religion & unhappy in his old religion, who turns to Hinduism. That's Karma. You need to have this spiritual journey, cause while you are searching for the right path, you learn a lot & when Hinduism founds you, you know you're home. I have right to say that I'm Hindu & I must say, that I was ignorant & even didn't want to turn to Hinduism because Abrahamic religions leave you stains in your way of thinking, you know what I mean? But I'm so happy I did. In these few months, I already did loose my faith in Hinduism. Sometimes I got this thinking, that maybe I should live life like Westerners do. For teenager, I'm really traditionalist & teens can think it's boring & that I'm giving hard time for myself. You have no idea, how happy & how sure I was that I'm Hindu when I saw that new Hinduism Today magazine (October, November, December 2010) is online already. I even said that I'm hyper happy! (not sure if that's even possible). I guess I have these up's & down's because I don't leave with religiously similar community. But maybe that's part of my unresolved karma (I believe I still have a lot of unresolved things to do for my few next lifes. Hope that no more than 20-30....) and later in my life I'll be able to move into community with many Hindus & live rest of my life as a Hindu.
As for being Hindu, don't you think that there are much more Hindus than statistics show? I mean people like me who still haven't severed ties with the past religion officially & haven't done ethnical conversion or something like that & many who practices Hinduism without knowing it?
Hinduism has made me much better person than I was before & I hope the more I learn about it, I'll become better & better person than way before.
Have a nice day,
~Alice
Spastic hemiplegia — Only one side of your child’s body is stiff. Her arms or hands might be more affected than her legs. On the affected side, her arm and leg may not develop normally. ©CerebralPalsy.org (http://www.cerebralpalsy.org/types-of-cerebral-palsy/)
I have problems with my left hand & my left leg is about 1.97 inches (5 cm) shorter than my right one. That's pretty much all, I'm smart, you know.
First of all, I must say that I'm not good at making attractive titles :) But still hope that it's OK, if I post this.
I'm person with disability. You know I just found out how my disability can be translated into English. Never in Latvian I could find something that would help me to explain in English, what I mean by 'kind of disabled'. So now I know it's called Spastic Cerebral Palsy [Spastic hemiplegia - I'll copy text what it means below...].
So now as I said this I can continue to the being Hindu part. In one way Hinduism can make you feel bad that you are different from other people. But in the other way Hinduism is only religion that explains why people [if God exists. I believe in God, I just accept that God might not exist] have these kind of conditions & better or worse life than somebody else. The people around us & ignorance is that makes everything worse, not the disability itself.
I actually say that I'm kind of disabled, because people usually think someone in the wheelchair, am I right? I am not.
Whatever bad I did in my past life, I got that back in much, much better way than many people. I can dance, sing, I have fantastically big fantasies & imagination, I have really big goals [I want to become actress, singer-songwriter & director AND reform Hollywood & defend my dear Hinduism] & the Best Mom ever. I have had so much luck in my life. Like this time when I really wanted Mac computer & suddenly my sister's cousin called my mom if we need financial help [the Global crisis], so we took some of the money that was left for me by my uncle. My mom could pay anything that she couldn't (she took loan when she actually calculated that she could pay back, then there was no sign of global economical crisis) & I got Macbook Pro, an Ipod Nano & I even bought Ipod shuffle for my little sister & got everything for less :) And then of course milk soup was accidently spilled on it & I didn't turn it off at the right time. My computer was called 'Miracle' by the man who fixed it & did everything for bottle of good brandy. [When the bad happened I was into Judaism, when the 'miracle' happened - Hinduism.]. My point was: I'm really lucky to be like this in my current life, even with my disability.
Then there's people who say that to be Hindu one must be born as one. I believe it's not true. Why? I call it spiritual journey. Person without any religion & unhappy in his old religion, who turns to Hinduism. That's Karma. You need to have this spiritual journey, cause while you are searching for the right path, you learn a lot & when Hinduism founds you, you know you're home. I have right to say that I'm Hindu & I must say, that I was ignorant & even didn't want to turn to Hinduism because Abrahamic religions leave you stains in your way of thinking, you know what I mean? But I'm so happy I did. In these few months, I already did loose my faith in Hinduism. Sometimes I got this thinking, that maybe I should live life like Westerners do. For teenager, I'm really traditionalist & teens can think it's boring & that I'm giving hard time for myself. You have no idea, how happy & how sure I was that I'm Hindu when I saw that new Hinduism Today magazine (October, November, December 2010) is online already. I even said that I'm hyper happy! (not sure if that's even possible). I guess I have these up's & down's because I don't leave with religiously similar community. But maybe that's part of my unresolved karma (I believe I still have a lot of unresolved things to do for my few next lifes. Hope that no more than 20-30....) and later in my life I'll be able to move into community with many Hindus & live rest of my life as a Hindu.
As for being Hindu, don't you think that there are much more Hindus than statistics show? I mean people like me who still haven't severed ties with the past religion officially & haven't done ethnical conversion or something like that & many who practices Hinduism without knowing it?
Hinduism has made me much better person than I was before & I hope the more I learn about it, I'll become better & better person than way before.
Have a nice day,
~Alice
Spastic hemiplegia — Only one side of your child’s body is stiff. Her arms or hands might be more affected than her legs. On the affected side, her arm and leg may not develop normally. ©CerebralPalsy.org (http://www.cerebralpalsy.org/types-of-cerebral-palsy/)
I have problems with my left hand & my left leg is about 1.97 inches (5 cm) shorter than my right one. That's pretty much all, I'm smart, you know.