Re: The Vow- Please suggest
Namaste rv2789
I have been reviewing my vows made at the last weekend with the agreement of my wife and daughter but could not stick to it after 4 days. I wish to be free of all attachments and just live out my life as created by God Sri Krishna who I worship through Brahma the sattvic Lord who seemingly supervises my life and my path in life. I of course have no proof that the Gods exist at all but I hope that they do exist for I know that I would have failed miserably as a human being left to my own devices and conducting my life to material and spiritual attachments.
I have been able to lead a family life in this manner with considerable difficulty for the past 22 years since I lost my scientific career in agricultural development and the State here in the UK diagnosed me as suffering from persistent delusional disorder for which I have to take anti-psychotic and anti-depressant medications. I take these willingly as my wife also thinks that I should not have married and had a family because these lack of attachments mean that I cannot lead a productive life in humanity without specific rules and regulations that require me to lose my freedom and this hurts my conscience.
If that is any guide to you please take note of it or dismiss it as irrelevant and counter productive to your personal situation.
Thanks for reading.