Namaste all, it has been far too long since I have been on this website.
I did not know where exactly to post this, so God in Hinduism seemed as good a place as any.
I come to share news that is both impersonal and the most personal statement I can make.
I have attained to the state of Jivanmukta.
This is an enormous claim, and I am perfectly aware that to say that seems as an immensely egotistical act, but I share it for many reasons.
First, the fact that I am in material reality a 23 year old american college student whose given name is Eric.
Second, it is a measure of thanks for those who both helped me and hindered me on this path, and to thank all of you wonderful people (goodness this sounds like an acceptance speech). Were it not for your pushing me to think about That Which Is (or Brahman) I might not have achieved this state.
But for those who will inevitably be angry, those who will be confused, and to those who will ultimately think I am mentally ill by the end of this post, I will share what the nature of Jivanmukta is like.
First off, it is intuitive, it is not just thinking "I have attained the highest realization of the supreme" it is a feeling without comparison. Losing all concept of the vessel known as the body as the actual self (I no longer consider myself simply Eric, Eric is just a physical manifestation that imagined himself partitioned off from greater reality) and instead realizing that one exists both as ultimate reality (brahman) and as a physical being in material reality simultaneously.
Knowing this and realizing are entirely different realms. Knowing means you can intellectualize and reduce, realizing is embracing by way of feeling the immensity of this statement. Feeling the fact that under this veil which is both illusory and real that you are ultimately everything while still separate is an enormous paradoxical state. At once you realize that you are, and that you are not, you are experiencer and experience. It is both the most egotistical thing known to humanity and the most humbling.
I have now realized, bodily, transcendantly what the illusion of self (Eric in this case) is. I am no longer terrified of death, nor do I welcome it to my bosom yet, there is still much I can accomplish in this corporeal form and I plan to do so.
And just because I have attained this state in no way separates me, elevates me, or makes me special. It is just a realization, it cannot separate me as separateness is the grandest illusion of all.
I will continue to respect the fact that people don't accept my beliefs as true, and on some level that is a truth in and of itself
I accept the fact that there will be some backlash and that I'm making an extraordinarily prideful and spurious claim of attainment when I am in fact feeding my ego, which some will inevitably think.
But I say this all anyway, I have decided to share this truth with you because there is no need to hide it. In fact, I want everyone to feel this way, because when you feel this way, you feel the greatest love, joy, and serenity that you as a physical person will ever know. You will conceptualize internally Brahman's true form without truly knowing yet also truly knowing.
So as my last comment on this, if anyone would like to know more on what this feels like, if anyone wants to feel it themselves, or anyone just wants to talk about it in general, nothing would make me happier than to help or explain this state that is incomparable.
I am also sadly aware that as the material world constantly changes, so too will my grasp of Jivanmukta, I will sometimes be wholly Eric in my mind and sometimes I will be both thte physical body known as Eric and teh ultimate self.
For those who are angered at this, I accept your insults readily and with joy.
Namaste all
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