Re: Need spiritual help
namasté & hello,
markandeya 108 dasa writes,
I think this is spot-on.
all is temporary and external. The temporal nature or phenomena weather good or bad is uncertain and will ultimately let us down, there is no refuge in the conditions, they are too unstable, that flux is absolute, it wont change, if we see this then nothing to jealous of, if we are jealous that someone else is doing better than us, then whats the point, the conditions of that success can change in an instant
The human condition is that of outward experience... there must be a subject and an object. The subject for many is this ego and is outward facing. Over time (again and again) we are ~ conditioned~ to face outwards. Then one says your real nature is that of SELF, Being, Silence. The human then says yes, were do I find it where ( out there) is it ? Then we are told look within. This too causes a conundrum because we’re still looking for some ‘thing’. We are looking for something to hold and inspect. We even look at thoughts, at the mind, the intellect , where is that SELF in here? Which one is it? It is none of these as it is not found in the field of change. The field of change as markandeya 108 dasa says is external. Even thoughts are external to Self, Being, Silence.
So why mention this? This field of change is where the ego resides. It expands, it ‘eats’ experiences , even jealousy. It cares not what is for dinner as long as it is fed.
So now the question.... to whom is this jealousy (asūyā¹) occurring? Well, me. Who is this me? Therein lies the problem. If ‘me’ is the part that is external to SELF it then comes and goes. Is that 'you' ?
1. asūyā - envy , jealousy ; displeasure , indignation especially at the merits or the happiness of another
because you are identical with śiva