Re: Still broken
Namaste one and all...
Originally Posted by
markandeya 108 dasa
Namaste Webimpulse Ji,
I have seen this many a times and the only thing that can help is to find good sangha, good association and doing some seva and being busy and engage yourself in activities that do not revolve around self absorption. Mind is like a wheel and if its stuck in lower vibration then it becomes narak chakra or hellish cycle. Not only will seva and sadhu sangha help raise the vibration but it will replace and dissolve the current impressions in your mind with more positive ones, which then gradually lead towards true transcendental states. Go to groups who do some Bhajan and Kirtan, also listen to Bhajanas at home, and classes and talks by teachers that inspire you, memorize verses then meditate and reflect on the meaning, Krsna says when the mind wanders bring back under control. If at first you dont succeed try again, if life knocks you down get back up. Keeping good morality in body speech and mind is essential.
I can relate to this, for what my opinion is worth.
I have a short fuse at times: I can be impatient, mostly when driving. I used to have serious problems with road rage, to the point of harassing and bullying other drivers, especially those in smaller vehicles (I drive a pickup truck). I think it's the anonymity of being behind glass. Fortunately I've never hurt anyone or had an accident. I don't care about myself getting hurt, I surely deserve it. The long-timers here can vouch for my short-tempered exchanges at HDF before I realized that is not who I want to be, and disappeared for a time to regroup and reinvent myself.
My daily speech is littered with phrases and words that would make a sailor or long-haul trucker be embarrassed to hear. I also tend to judge people and often see them as less than worthy of respect, and even worse, life. It's very often difficult in these times to see the divine in people, but we have to try. It is not something I am proud of, rather, it is a bad habit. It was reinforced during my time dabbling with Heathenry (Norse religion and culture, i.e. Viking). The road rage is pretty much a thing of the past, and I am working on the other things.
Now, this is not to make this a confession and assuage a guilty conscience, but rather to say that the more I associate at temple and with Indian coworkers, I am curbing these bad habits. Which brings me to saying that I whole-heartedly agree with surrounding oneself with people of good character and wholesome activities, whether at temple or another venue. I see it in action. You know, my late father-in-law used to say "show me your friends and I'll tell you who you are".
śivasya hridayam viṣṇur viṣṇoscha hridayam śivaḥ
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