In the heat of the moment and due to bad company unfortunately I engaged in sex with a prostitute. Needless to say, I did not enjoy the experience and felt very guilty. In the company of the same person I again had sex with a prostitute few months later. I was thinking I have already become impure so it does not matter.
But after that, I realized that I am falling into a spiritual abyss and decided that I should refrain from any sexual acts until marriage. Note that both my sexual acts were protected and I am free from any disease. All this happened two years ago.
However, recently, my parents have found a girl for my marriage and I am sure she is a virgin. I am feeling very guilty and am unable to decided whether I should proceed with the marriage. I can not tell my parents as it would hurt them much (to the possibility of a heart attack). I don't think I will ever get married if I tell this to my prospective wife.
Please guide me as to what should I do. What does hindu dharma say in this regard? And how can I repent for this act of adharma?
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