I feel compelled to find one god to cherish over the rest--yet do not know which one.
Is this bad?
To me.. Shiva, Vishnu and Brahma are all equal.
I believe that they are all just incarnations of the absolute and more intently are all just incarnations of the universe.
The Universe is created (brahma) and things continually become created--it is sustained such is everything sustained for a period of time (vishnu), and it and other things are destroyed.(Shiva)
I am drawn to the incarnations of Vishnu and the stories, and I feel as if when I sing to Vishnu and Krishna I feel as if I can be more melodious and happy, I enjoy the positive vibration.
Though, when I meditate I feel a strong connection to Shiva. I also feel more drawn to Shiva being the god to go to for self realization, and I feel as if Vishnu is more of an external god than Shiva. I am more interested in self realization and becoming one with my creator, and finding the god within me rather than external means.
I also become filled with the creative nature at times, which some may refer to as Shakti energy, I like the beauty of that because I can so much feel connected with the energy brewing in the world and in me. I feel like I can bow down to this beauty so easily--if I should even define this energy as the goddess.
Is it normal to worship all of these forms of the divine? Or should I only find one to venerate more than others?
Sometimes I feel as if I should sing songs to each, or one depending on my mood.
I also thought of mainly singing and looking to Hanuman-ji for guidance due to him being such a loyal follower of God--however--he only found refuge in Ram and Sita, and I would find refuge in all incarnations of God. I feel as if this would be frowned upon.
Do I have to be just a follower of Vishnu, or Siva, Shakti?
If so what are those criteria?
Or should I just follow my heart and sing to every aspect of the divine that is Shakti, Siva, Vishnu, and Brahma?
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