Re: Does God exist?
Namaste Rudy,
The others have already expressed much of my own thoughts eloquently, so what I add may sound redundant. Doubt is not a bad thing. In fact, it is often the precursor to true spiritual and self-inquiry. To question why is wonderful. It is not a cause for sorrow or uncertainty! I myself have never been explicitly atheist, but like many others I have had moments of doubt and confusion. Just over a year ago I went through a questioning phase like yourself. I also "hoped God was real", and would lie awake at night wondering if He was all just a dream or fantasy we had made to make ourselves feel better, to know there was something greater. Were it not for this, I ardently believe I would have never progressed much further. It is all part and parcel of one's spiritual journey, IMO. To quote another member's comment once, "No doubt will lead to no enlightment, but much doubt can lead to great enlightenment!"
To say I and the others believe strongly in God would be clearly meaningless for you. What does it mean, and how can you take our word for it? How, indeed. God is to be experienced personally. There is no other way for you to know Him. Pietro makes an apt observation: you cannot know God through mere logic, just as you cannot know love through logic. Love, if anything, is the antithesis of logic! How else can we explain self-sacrifice, effort to work for others, compassion for another living creature, forgiveness for the transgressions of others? You don't question the existence of love and goodness, surely, even though you cannot prove these. They are not physical, you cannot see or measure love, but you see it is the cause and the good things that arise from it are the effects. The same analogy can be made of God, of Whom love as we understand is just a tiny component of His many faces.
As upsydownyupsy mv ss says, question as much as you need to! Learn to think for yourself and meditate on this and don't feel unhappy for not knowing. You can come to your own conclusions. God will not be angry or even annoyed at your questioning Him. Millions do everyday! Many outright reject His existence, but still He smiles on them and tenderly watches over all. He placed the decision to believe squarely into your own hands. This is His gift of free-will to everyone.
That we can and cannot see Him, can and cannot prove or disprove Him... this is all part of God's lila, His sport for His own divine amusement and joy. He is beyond the reach of everything else except Love of and for Him. Nothing else can make you know Him directly.
Om namah Shivaya
"Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become your character.
Watch your character, it becomes your destiny."
ॐ गं गणपतये नमः
Om Gam Ganapataye namah
लोकाः समस्ताः सुखिनो भवन्तु ।
Lokaah SamastaaH Sukhino Bhavantu
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